Dale you are a handprint on my heart

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All of a sudden you were gone

It’s been 675 days since you left 

I read this a bit ago “ You’ll always be with me, like a handprint on my heart…”

So true, 

Yes, maybe the scent on your pillow has faded 

and Your voice seems so far away …. I can  hardly hear it 

And the random text from you to  warm my heart are yesterdays 

And the gaze of your eyes melting in mine is a memory 

Knowing all this steals my breath 

And takes me down to my knees 

I miss you so much …

But 

Then with a conscious  effort — 

I remind myself of  how Blessed I am 

   To know you , To be loved by you.. To love you forever

   and I WILL see you again … 

And 

Yes, your scent has faded from your pillow 

   But ,it gives me comfort  knowing I can still rest my head on the very same  pillow you rested yours 

And Yes, I  may not hear your voice 

    But , my heart still has conversations with you 

And Yes , I may not get those random real time text from you anymore

   But, I do get your whispers when I need them the most. 

Some days I just need to breath 

Some days , I need to close my eyes

And some days I need to share 

And this is one of those days…

I Love you Dale Crockett 

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I would like to give you a little back ground history of how I ended up here... I am 51 years old, a Nurse Practitioner, a mother of three awesome young men. I have had two failed attempts in marriage and finally found 'unconditional love' . I fell in love with my friend of 16 years... I never realized that 'my love' was right in front of me all this time . He had been divorced for 5 years and it wasn't until his divorce and mine that we realized we were each others soul mates. Dale, was one of a kind.. he was respectful towards me and so loving and most importantly a God fearing man. We became boyfriend and girlfriend and then we soon became engaged. He asked me to marry him in front of the Seattle city lights. It was so romantic.. the lights gleaming on the lake as we stood at Gas Works Park right in front of Lake Union . So fast forward.. July 27, 2017 was my honey's birthday- he turned 52! A very healthy person who ran most of his life. I asked him what he wanted to do on his birthday and he had asked if we could go see wedding venues. So we saw three different wedding venues . Later , that evening my heart broke... he had a sudden heart attack and died . I have been through a long unwanted journey and it seems everyday is a day I spend grieving with HOPE! I created this blog to share my story in hopes that maybe one day my grief and despair / journey will help at least one person ...

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