Have you ever had those days where out of nowhere, a word or phrase keeps coming up?
A trigger word that draws in memories.. ??
For me, I have been hearing the word “Rock star” on more than one occasion this week.
Is it a coincidence?
No, I am going to take it as God’s whisper– telling me
That I am a Rock star
And reminding me that Dale is with me and I am his Rock star
Why the word Rock star?
What Dale wanted for his Birthday was pictures of me to hang on the wall.
So the evening of his Birthday, just prior to him leaving his house to go for
his last run ( He had a fatal cardiac arrest during his run).
He had set up his ‘picture wall’ like he wanted and called me his Rock star.
His last Facebook post :
When my tank is running on empty and I just need a jump start to help get me through the day; my prayer request to God is ‘HELP—HELP fill my tank—Show me your love”. And, it never fails, God is right there waiting to be my rescuer.
God, says I will not only fill your tank Liz but I overfill it!
God , speaks to us on a daily, we just have to stop and listen. My faith is in him and my Hope is in him and every second I hold onto God’s promises.
So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ. Romans 10:17 ESV
I would like to give you a little back ground history of how I ended up here...
I am 51 years old, a Nurse Practitioner, a mother of three awesome young men. I have had two failed attempts in marriage and finally found 'unconditional love' .
I fell in love with my friend of 16 years... I never realized that 'my love' was right in front of me all this time . He had been divorced for 5 years and it wasn't until his divorce and mine that we realized we were each others soul mates. Dale, was one of a kind.. he was respectful towards me and so loving and most importantly a God fearing man.
We became boyfriend and girlfriend and then we soon became engaged. He asked me to marry him in front of the Seattle city lights. It was so romantic.. the lights gleaming on the lake as we stood at Gas Works Park right in front of Lake Union .
So fast forward..
July 27, 2017 was my honey's birthday- he turned 52! A very healthy person who ran most of his life.
I asked him what he wanted to do on his birthday and he had asked if we could go see wedding venues. So we saw three different wedding venues .
Later , that evening my heart broke... he had a sudden heart attack and died .
I have been through a long unwanted journey and it seems everyday is a day I spend grieving with HOPE!
I created this blog to share my story in hopes that maybe one day my grief and despair / journey will help at least one person ...
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