Feelings always takes the lead

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Moments of grief

I often times allow my FEELINGS to take over
‘Feelings’ the  driver, drives me through this long windy road that sometimes has me captive and I really don’t know where it’s going to end up taking me

And often times it keeps me stuck on this wretched road

One direction leads to -sad, hopeless, miserable, heartbroken, anxious, lost, mad

The other direction takes me to  gloomy, unhappy, miserable, crushed, unsure, paralyzed, uncomfortable, bitter feelings

And back again
Does it ever stop

Then I desperately turn on the GPS
I begin to allow my mind to THINK and take over

 

GPS begins to speak

 

Please take the exit, then keep straight towards out of this Hell hole of  feelings!
Follow road ‘Peace and Hope’
You will arrive to your destination if you stay on course.

 

Silence

 

 

Unfortunately , I am terrible with GPS and directions

the driver — ‘FEELINGS’ takes over again.

 

Here’s a thought

I Would love to yank the driver out and give him a peace of my mind

© 2018, Liz Ann Crockett

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I would like to give you a little back ground history of how I ended up here... I am 51 years old, a Nurse Practitioner, a mother of three awesome young men. I have had two failed attempts in marriage and finally found 'unconditional love' . I fell in love with my friend of 16 years... I never realized that 'my love' was right in front of me all this time . He had been divorced for 5 years and it wasn't until his divorce and mine that we realized we were each others soul mates. Dale, was one of a kind.. he was respectful towards me and so loving and most importantly a God fearing man. We became boyfriend and girlfriend and then we soon became engaged. He asked me to marry him in front of the Seattle city lights. It was so romantic.. the lights gleaming on the lake as we stood at Gas Works Park right in front of Lake Union . So fast forward.. July 27, 2017 was my honey's birthday- he turned 52! A very healthy person who ran most of his life. I asked him what he wanted to do on his birthday and he had asked if we could go see wedding venues. So we saw three different wedding venues . Later , that evening my heart broke... he had a sudden heart attack and died . I have been through a long unwanted journey and it seems everyday is a day I spend grieving with HOPE! I created this blog to share my story in hopes that maybe one day my grief and despair / journey will help at least one person ...

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