It’s Now a year… You can move on and put that behind you”

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It’s Now a year
You can move on

Words told to me

Does one year cure all ?
Does it mend the broken heart?
Should I have woken up on the One year mark and be joyous?

Because , obviously it’s ONE YEAR NOW….

Oh, my friend  if you only knew

For me ,
one year is meaningless except a reminder
that
Dale has been with God for one year now

A reminder
My heart has been shattered into a million pieces
A reminder
I will never be whole again
And every breath after has and is work

PS , My friend
My life has not been the same since
My existence of just existing is my norm
A battle that keeps me busy and exhausted

No , my friend
One year
is the same as it was
on day One

© 2018 Liz Ann Crockett

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I would like to give you a little back ground history of how I ended up here... I am 51 years old, a Nurse Practitioner, a mother of three awesome young men. I have had two failed attempts in marriage and finally found 'unconditional love' . I fell in love with my friend of 16 years... I never realized that 'my love' was right in front of me all this time . He had been divorced for 5 years and it wasn't until his divorce and mine that we realized we were each others soul mates. Dale, was one of a kind.. he was respectful towards me and so loving and most importantly a God fearing man. We became boyfriend and girlfriend and then we soon became engaged. He asked me to marry him in front of the Seattle city lights. It was so romantic.. the lights gleaming on the lake as we stood at Gas Works Park right in front of Lake Union . So fast forward.. July 27, 2017 was my honey's birthday- he turned 52! A very healthy person who ran most of his life. I asked him what he wanted to do on his birthday and he had asked if we could go see wedding venues. So we saw three different wedding venues . Later , that evening my heart broke... he had a sudden heart attack and died . I have been through a long unwanted journey and it seems everyday is a day I spend grieving with HOPE! I created this blog to share my story in hopes that maybe one day my grief and despair / journey will help at least one person ...

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